Posted on: April 19, 2011 Posted by: Felicia S. C. Gooden Comments: 0

I let you in.
You took over.
I fell into your trap,
And you took me.
Now I am at a stand still.
I cannot leave you be.
However, the real truth is that
You are NO good for me.
And that is fine.
But I need to shake this feeling.
I need a fix.
I need you running through me.
I need you touch.
I need your love.
I need your mind.
I need you.
I can’t stop my thoughts.
I no longer control my feelings.
I have no control over my mind.
I am barely holding on to my life.
My mind is gone.
My heart has left long ago.
You took them with you,
And you refuse to let go.
Now I sit and stare at the wall.
Waiting for my next fix.
Fighting myself to stop.
Trying not to give in.
Then you show up,
You sit in front of my face.
You look into my eyes.
And it’s over.
The pain is unbearable.
But I can’t get enough.
I cry all day and night.
But I still need you with me.
I feel my energies pulling at one another.
I cannot stop drinking.
I feel my mind stretching and struggling.
I cannot stop smoking.
I am constantly high.
I live to be dunk.
The only thing that can keep me physically sober,
Is the mental intoxication of your love.
My soul is struggling to be free.
But I still let you hold on to me.
It has never felt so good to hurt so badly.
Someone help before it kills me.
Signed.
The Addict.

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