Posted on: September 28, 2013 Posted by: Felicia S. C. Gooden Comments: 4

“And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;
And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel,
For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, and I ought to speak.”
-Ephesians 6:17-20
They say the mystical path isn’t easy, and I can testify that statement is correct. But is it just the mystical path that isn’t easy? Could it be that life in general, as spiritual beings learning and mastering this human existence, isn’t easy – period? For we all face trials and tribulations on a daily basis, and we all have to endure the challenges of life with our heads held high; therefore, that path that we all walk along simply isn’t easy. We are in a constant spiritual battle whether we are consciously aware of it or not. We constantly are met with distractions and obstructions from spirits from this dimension and others. We are all enduring the hellfire in order to find the Greater Light of the heavenly realms. All of our souls are being purified so that we may become one with The Creator God once more for all eternity – until we are set with a mission, that is.
I must confess, I willingly embraced some of the darkest corners of the fire pit of hell. I’ve been through the inner fire of purification and had so many moments in which I thought I could not endure until recently. I found myself in a situation that inflicted such emotional pain that I pretty much lost my mind. For the sake of trying to do the right thing and love unconditionally, I found myself being dragged through a dark forest of debauchery and defilement. Why endure such a situation? To prove not only to myself but also to God that I understood unconditional love and could withstand the trials that had been laid before me. I believed that I could handle the challenge. I just knew that I had the strength and power to deal, but I broke. I couldn’t take it anymore. I was pushed into a corner so tight that I had absolutely nowhere to go, nowhere to turn but to God.
I was being attacked psychologically by what I thought was a friend; I was being used by what I tried to make a lover; I was being manipulated by what I thought was a guide. I was no perfected saint myself, but my intentions were pure of heart. On a dark night when I took an extended walk, I had to talk to the God of my Heart. I knew fully that I had a mission to fulfill. I knew that I had a job to do, but my heart simply couldn’t handle what came with such a mission. I told God aloud, “God, I’ve failed you. I’d rather die and honest failure than live a successful lie. Please, take me. I can’t do this. I’m not strong enough.” As soon as those words were spoken, a friend was sent to my aid to take me home. Apparently The Creator’s response to my plea was, “Go home.”
As I meditated upon the deep pain and unbearable trials I had faced, I posed the question to my master within, “What will this person get out of this? What has my effort done for this person?” The answer received was private, meaningful, and unbelievable. The answer was a love that will stand the test of time. Unconditional love. As the days went by and I attended a spiritual retreat, I found myself still dealing with the effects of the breakdown prior, but I worked through them as I was called to serve throughout the weekend. There was a point where ultimate reconciliation had taken place, and I found out the karmic reason for the mission that was chosen for me. At that moment, everything made sense and I was changed forever. I haven’t felt the same since. This was my true moment of illumination, for only the test of unconditional love could get me to that point.
Now, I am more connected to God, The Cosmic, more than I ever have been. I awoke a few days after the retreat feeling as if I was under a shield of protection and enveloped in the love of God. I felt as if the arms of The Creator were wrapped around me. There has never been so much clarity in my life, and I’ve surely never been so focused on doing right and working for The Glory of The Cosmic. My life and perspective have been forever changed, and I now can consciously feel that I live in the realm of The Spirit while here on Earth. I have consistent dreams relating to my new and true calling that must be answered, for I must succeed in truth or live a successful lie. The outcomes that I have seen are to come seem to be unreal. The daylight that is coming into view after one of the darkest nights my soul has ever seen seems to be surreal, and yet, I must continue.
We are all here for a purpose. Some of us are here to simply learn lessons, others are here to learn and teach. Others are here to master and preach. Whatever our individual purpose is, we must remain open to the divine plan that is set for us by the true power that pervades all. The All that there is. We must go forth on our journeys and earn the privilege to live, learn, and testify. We must go within and know ourselves and have the courage to answer our calling and Be Ourselves. Be not afraid of soul graduation, for ascension is the path that we are all on whether we know it or not.
Face your test, pass your test, and then go forth to testify to the glory of The God of your Heart. There will come a time when the true anointing is given and ordination is extended. No man can extend this divine graduation – only God.
Be Pure!

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  1. Dunno how or why, but I stumbled upon your blog and it resonates nicely for me. Maybe there’s a little bit of kismet at play too, because I shared somewhat similar thoughts on my FB wall earlier in the day:
    I really enjoy (and need) my long hikes in nature. It’s a way for me to reconnect with my soul in a primal way. It’s deeply fulfilling and soul soothing. But it’s not always a serene meditation out there. Sometimes it’s painful because there’s times when I need to let my thoughts run loose and take over, like letting banshees out to wreak havoc in the playground of my mind. They’re not always pleasant thoughts; they’re sometimes painful and I can feel their weight over the hours as I move through the forest — occasionally they persist well beyond the day’s hike. Once they’re out, I can’t put them back in the bag; nor would I want to.
    In a way, it’s a cleansing, a scrubbing of left over wounds in my soul as I let these things out and loose; to be free of their bonds within because how else could I also be free of them if they’re forever locked in me?
    I don’t always look forward to them or even enjoy it, but deep down I accept these kind of meditations because they lead the way to more joy and a purification of my soul. And I’ve noticed lately there’s less and less of a need to go there because one by one these sores have healed and become freed in their release.

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